Otis' Girl ([info]otis_girl) wrote,
@ 2006-10-18 18:43:00
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Current mood: okay

Strange day

It's been a strange day. Not good nor bad; just strange. The sky looks a sad shade of grey, and there's a tiny rain. I made a bad deal on stocks. I brought an armload of trashy romance novels from the library. I died my hair with the brightest shade of red I could find (still waiting for it to dry so I can see it!). I'm panicking a little because in 2 days I'll be turning 29. I scored over 1900 points on Yahoo Dominoes, which is huge, considering that 2 days ago I had never gone over 1700. (I have 2867 games completed. How pathetic is that??? What a huge waste of time.) And I wrote a really ugly e-mail to a former friend, basically declaring her… my former friend.

 

Ending relationships and cutting bonds is really sad. But the truth is, that friendship no longer existed for the past 2 years – and it wasn’t because of me. I only formalized a sad reality.

Strangely, I feel relieved. Before I was sad and angry at her, but I hoped all along that things would turn around and we'd be friends like before. But today she sad something that made me really angry, and I decided to quit my stupid denial and be brutally honest with her. Saying what you've been keeping inside is SO liberating.

 


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[info]dazismazi
2006-10-19 07:31 pm UTC (link)
i had to let go of the person i refer to as my UNfriend. she hasnt gotten the hint and keeps trying to worm her way back in. I dont mind speaking to her now that i no longer let how she acts and what she says affect me. of course, i tend to hang onto things long after i should have let go. it is liberating. I'm proud of you. And i meant to reply back to your comment about if the crazy shit that ha happened to me was directly related to Seattle. It's yes and no. There is a higher rate of bi-polarism (is that the right word) here and i seem to be attracting them in droves. Also the DV laws here are whacked. other than that, it's all been things that could happen anywhere. I've just never had this sort of thing happen to me and certainly not this many bad things happen to me one after the other.

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[info]otis_girl
2006-10-20 11:56 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry that things for you and your friend also didn't go well... but congrats for being able to let go. It can be so hard. So you are saying that somehow Seattle produces/attracts bi-polar people??? (Something to do with the weather, I wonder?) That's weird. Sorry - what are DV laws?

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[info]dazismazi
2006-10-21 06:22 pm UTC (link)
I've meet quite a few since moving here. AND it's the only town i have lived in where newspapers have ads for bi-polar clinics. DV is domestic violence. If someone claims the person they live with touched them against their will, that person has to be arrested according to the current WA state laws. And that's a freaking long story. I dont think i have even posted the whole story. I didnt have time right after it happened. Basically i rented a room from someone who went whacko or maybe she was wacko. I didnt know her. Just answered an ad on Craigslist. Anyway, she kept going into my room to turn off my fan when it was 95 inside, locking my cats in there, changed her mind about this that, etc etc. I had already decided i was moving out when she decided i had to leave because i wasnt spending time with her. All this in less than two weeks! She turned the power off to my room and after i called the police for help (she locked me out of the house too when i went next door to call because she unplugged my phone. i couldnt even call for help from my room!), she claimed i pushed her against the wall. The police didnt believe her so the next day after i called the police again for help because she wouldnt let me in the front door (i was trying to move my things out and she decided to paint the front door to make it impossible for me to leave) until i asked her nicely, she told them i hurt her neck because there is basically no way to prove a neck or back injury. freaking crazy bitch. the police officer didnt believe her, but told me that he was forced to make an arrest because she asked for medical assistance. i'm telling you. i've had some crazy things go down.

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[info]otis_girl
2006-10-23 06:39 am UTC (link)
Yeah, I've noticed lots of psychology research ads on the newspapers here.

Your ex roommate sounds scary and disturbed! What reason did she had to do that??? I'm sorry you went through that - but at least you're far away from her now. Damn, what a story! Did that go in your record?

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[info]dazismazi
2006-10-23 03:03 pm UTC (link)
oh yes, it's there as pending open charge. i had to hire a lawyer, possibly go to jury trial. HUGE mess. i had trouble even renting/finding a place to live, was very near homeless. i do not know her reasons nor do i even wwant to try to understand what makes a person act the way she did, let alone treat another human being like that.

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[info]quiet_earth
2006-10-19 11:48 pm UTC (link)
girl i think you did what was right, she needs to know the truth about her alienating good friends. and dont worry about playing computer games, we all have those days where we dont want to do anything except be lazy, and they have proven to increase brain power! and trashy romance novels are great inspiration.

let me know how your new hair color turns out! you look good in red.

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[info]otis_girl
2006-10-20 11:53 pm UTC (link)
My hair color actually turned near black! :-( Don't ask, I bought the reddest red possible, and I don't see red at all. Now I look like a witch! :-(

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